So we have hit a speed bump in our "plan". Last week we had two great offers on our house, this week we are back to no offers.
Isn't it funny how we say God is good when everything is coming together just liked we had hoped and prayed. And then the second things start slowing down, turning the other direction or even stopping we begin to doubt.
I start doubting myself, my plan, my wisdom and worst of all I start doubting God. Why is that?
I know, I know. It's because we are human. But seriously when is my faith really going to grow? When am I really going to let go of my plans and my desires and trust Him completely? Will I ever? Will this battle continue all the days of my life?
I'm sure God rolls his eyes at me when I begin to let worry, fear and doubt creep in. Just like when my kids don't trust me....I laugh at them. Where is their faith? Don't they know I am their mother? I would never put them in harms way.
Maybe I need a timeout. Maybe I need a good whoopin'. Or maybe I just need to grow up in God!
I found this quote by Martin Luther King Jr. "Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase."
This step of faith that we have taken is a big one. It might end up being steeper, longer and harder then we thought. I can either keep going up or fall back down, however, I have a feeling that to get where I want to be I'm going to have to climb those stairs sooner or later.
4 comments:
Angie, you are not alone in this struggle. It's amazing how hard it is to trust sometimes even when we know that God has opened the door for us to walk through. We will be praying as you and your family continue in this new direction. We would love to get together when you get down this way!
Oh man, sorry neither one of those prospects worked out. I will be praying for you guys!
What? Are you crazy?? No faith?! What are you human or what?! Hey i am here for you and I can totally understand how you are feeling in some ways...I'll keep praying and you keep trusting and let's see what God does! Love ya!
I know that this has taken me forever to comment Im sorry.
I am praying that the right person for your house will come along soon. Keep your eyes on God and he will take care of you. God has a plan and he knows the roads you have to take to get there. Just trust in him to get you there. Love you.
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